Am I There Yet?

Many years ago I lost 40 pounds, which was about half of what I needed to lose. Then I hit a plateau. A really big plateau. I couldn’t budge it and I eventually gave up.

Fast forward to today.

I’m past the previous sticking point (barely), but the scale is definitely slowing down. That was to be expected, maybe even desired, because it means there’s less to lose. I feel really good about that, but I’ll admit I’ve also been a little antsy about it lately. What if this is as far as I go? It’s a question that floats around in the dusty recesses of my mind, but after some extensive pondering, I have my answer.

Q: What if I don’t get there?
A: There never was a there.

Now I know why I never have a ready answer when people ask me how much more weight I plan to lose. I simply don’t know. When a trainer asked what size I’d like to be, I shrugged and said 12 or 14 sounded good, even though I didn’t know what that would look like.

For me, there is no real answer other than to be fit and healthy. From the beginning, my goal has always been to learn how to eat a healthy diet and exercise regularly. Beyond that, there’s not much I can do about the scale. I’ve always believed that in my heart, even if I need to be reminded of it from time to time. My body will decide what weight it wants to be based on what I put into it and the effort I pull out of it. That is the only thing I have control over.

All that said, it’s still good to have measurable goals. The trick, I think, is in accepting that some of them may be just out of reach. And that could actually be a very good thing, because there’s joy in working toward something. In fact, that’s often where you find those other successes, like completing a 5k or lowering your blood pressure. And sometimes those successes you never expected: like size 12 Levi’s 512 jeans. :) And there’s no failure in that. No siree, Bob.

So I’ll continue to work for shiny new badges, knowing that at some point there will be a badge that stays up there for a very, very long time. I’d like it to be a different one than the one I have now, but if it isn’t? I’ll still keep working.